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On Wake Up Calls - Part III

I will get to the point eventually. I usually do. Figuring out what is that point, however, is a task by itself. May be, I just need to vent, may be I am just annoyed by the fact that there is a blog on this site, which was abandoned for a while, or may be there is more to the four little metal things residing in my coronary artery than just preventing it from collapsing.
I don't remember all the correct stages, but there is one thing I am fairly sure about: this is as far away from acceptance, as it can be.
And, finally, I understood why I am so angry with my quitting smoking.
First of all, that wasn't my idea. As a result, I feel no real satisfaction, when I think about all these days I hadn't had a cigarette (since 01/30/06 to be exact). I just fill frustrated.
Secondly, every time I feel like burning one, I don't. This constantly reminds me that I am old, sick, not well, have "a condition", and so on. It is very annoying.
So, what was the point?
Still n…